ø Don’t waste your time reading this blog ø

Never too late to go for your dreams

Filed under: commentary, spiritual — taewoo @ 2:40 pm December 30, 2008

I can’t stand people in their late 20’s to mid 40’s who keep saying they can’t start a business, pursue their passion, etc. b/c they’re too old. Tell that to THESE people.

An age is nothing but a changing number, but the dream is eternal.

[Post to Twitter] Tweet This Post 

Better crazy and happy than sane and miserable

Filed under: commentary, spiritual — Tags: — taewoo @ 12:02 pm November 3, 2008

Yesterday, I was at the SF US Half Marathon. It was not a pleasant experience - waking up at 5:30 AM, driving an hour to SF, looking for parking in the worst-parking area of the city, walking 20 minutes in my sandals… all this in drizzling rain and freakin’ cold sea breeze.

Waiting for the marathon to finish was no party either. I had to poo and of course, nothing but port-a-potties with absolutely no ventilation. The sample vendors were stingy and I was friggin’ hungry. Worst yet, the MP3 player I was using had only 20 songs so I was repeating the same crap over and over again.

Yeap, I was one whiney little biatch.
When the marathoners were coming around towards the finish line, I noticed this homeless Asian guy on the other side of the street. There was a live band playing rock music, and being the crazy man that he is, there was probably a party going on his head. Pretty standard sight to see in big cities like SF.

I don’t mean just “partying”… he was playing his air-guitar, pseudo-dancing, and best of all, smiling like a freakin’ kitty kat:

(well, he looked like an animal of some kind with all that hair.)

This continued for at LEAST 20 minutes. Maybe even longer. Of course, if you’re a normal person, the polite thing to do is to not stare. (Side point: If you wanted to be a terrorist/conspirator trying to be in-conspicuous, the last person that should do it is a good looking man or even worse, a good looking woman. In fact, don’t even look average or blend in. Instead dress like a homeless person. NOBODY, and I mean even security personnel, will look at you. In fact, they look away and you become invisible.)

Not me. I stared at this dude for the entire duration. I think he got uncomfortable or something because he eventually stopped smiling and left. Who knows? Maybe he was just hungry.

But I got to thinking… how is he some damn happy? From my perspective, if you’re a homeless person living in a cold city like SF, life would suck and every minute of my life would be one long torture. But apparently not!

I guess happiness isn’t a factor of external factors, like people, events, money, etc. It is WAAAAAAAAAY better to be crazy and happy than sane and miserable.

[Post to Twitter] Tweet This Post 

Is God fair? Who knows.

Filed under: commentary, spiritual — Tags: — taewoo @ 3:07 pm September 29, 2008

When shit hits the fan (i.e. current bank failures, real estate bubble bursting exploding, people losing jobs, terminal diseases, wars, natural disasters…  make your choice), people seem to have this spiritual argument: is God fair? In fact last night, I went to mass and this was exactly the topic.

This is obviously a dumb question: of course, God is fair. If you believe that God created everything, then why not random chance? Randomness is His creation too, right?

Randomness is great because it really does not care who you are.. how, what, when, where you are in fact. THis isn’t probably a good example, but Joker from the movie Batman says

Introduce a little anarchy, you upset the established order, and everything becomes chaos. I am an agent of chaos. And you know the thing about chaos, Harvey? It’s fair.

It’s not to say that chaos is same as random chance but the principal is the same. We are all little boats on this shaky ocean of life. We all get shit to a certain degree: some of us have more skills, some have more money, some are better looking, some are well spoken…. but to a certain extent, some of us have more fear, some have more jitters, some have more anger, some have more addictive personalities, etc.

No one is perfect and everyone is subject to the same human faults, expressed in different characteristics. And because we are all boats on this turbulet life ocean, we can choose to set our sail and exert our force + focus in the direction that we want to go. Some will suceed, most will fail (why? that’s another ph.D thesis i can get into) but the truth and matter is, we all start out from the same ocean… the same random chance of life or cards we were dealt.

People ask… “well, what about a baby who’s born into this world and die at very young age. Do you think that’s fair even if he had no chance of ’setting his sail’?” Of course not… but what if you had time machine, go to future in time, and find out that he turns out to be a serial killer who kills babies for fun? Then was it fair? We can go into zillion different if’s… but we can always think of these other if’s that support or destroy our argument too.

No one can predict or change the future… but each and everyone does have the capacity to change his/her reaction toward’s a life’s event that would ultimately dictact whether or not God was fair.

[Post to Twitter] Tweet This Post